Very important....

[pirahna]

Ok.... For anyone who doesn't know... My mother passed away this morning.... 6:15 am... My schedule for the next few days is going to be a little crazy, and honestly probably for the next week... We're going to be holding her service on Monday, and sometime within the next couple days we're going to be holding a viewing and everything... So, I'm going to be busy... But, I'm ok. Surprisingly... I just feel like I'm on a horrible roller coaster ride that won't let me off. My mother is going to be cremated.... And I'm just so sad because everything happened so fast... I almost feel guilty... Yesterday, at around 3:30 pm, we woke her up after she had been sleeping for 25 hours... This was not normal. She gets up, comes into the kitchen with me, and we're making a glass of pepsi. Talking, laughing... Then, I left to go to walmart. And I get this phone call from my father as I'm checking out that something happened. He wouldn't tell me what had happened.. But later on, i found out it was a heart attack. He had heard a weird noise.. It was her exhaling, loudly, with a gurgling sound, and staring with her eyes fixed at the ceiling. So, after she went into the hospital, I came up there to bring my dad his phone charger, and when I left, I told her I loved her, and she told me the same. And that's the last time I saw her awake. Around 11 pm, she went into kidney failure. About 45 minutes later, my father was told 5 of her organs were failing... At midnight, her heart stopped for 20 minutes. She came back, not awake or anything, but her heart was still going. She crashed 2 more times, the last one I was there for. Well, the doctor came in and said that he wasn't able to fix the problem. They were wanting to do a ct scan with the dye so they could see where this horrible infection that caused blood poisoning was coming from. He said that basically, he was just putting a bandaid over the problem and wasn't fixing the problem, so it wouldn't be fair to her to just keep bringing her pulse back, when every time they did, the intervals it stayed up were shorter and shorter each time..... So. At 6:15 am... She finally let go. And it was so hard... So hard to just watch her pass. I stood beside her bed. Held her hand..... So, now. I sit here. Feeling like at any moment she's going to walk in the door... But I know she's not... So, everyone. Just keep me in your thoughts, please. I appreciate every single one of you, and I wouldn't have spent the time to tell you all what happened, if you weren't important to me. Hold tight to what you love, live your life like you want, and just be good. <3

[Revenge]

;-; This is so sad, it makes my heart so heavy. You are in my thoughts Alea. <3 May your mother rest in peace.

[Aconite]

And right before Mother's Day. You and your family with be in thoughts today. I'm so glad you were able to tell her you loved her, and vice versa. At least she had her family with her. As tragic as it is, that is so important.

[Nakisai]

We here at The Crew, are very sorry to hear your loss. Please take as much time as you need. You will not be kicked out. We give our sincerest apologies, and if you ever need to rant, cry, or talk to me, or anyone. We would be happy to talk to you and take your mind off of things.

Do not feel guilty, it's no ones fault. She knows you will always love and cherish her, and she will forever be with you. <3

[pirahna]

Thank you all for your support, I appreciate it more than you will ever know... Her funeral is this Thursday, so I will probably be gone all day.... I'm not sure how I'm going to be able seeing my mother in a casket... But it looks like I'm going to be moving up here with my father. My brother is autistic, mentally handicapped, blind, just found out he has cerebral palsy, and so much more. So, I'll be having to take care of him until his caretakers get here so, hopefully after this week or so, I'll be on on a regular basis.